I love living in the country. It’s quiet and I can be my antisocial self. Well, I’m not really antisocial, I can just be very shy. I try to be open but it takes me awhile to get there. It’s not that I don’t want to, but more like it’s hard for me sometimes.
Those who are closest to me know this about me. They know that sometimes I’ll hide away on my farm and just putter around, being all quiet and reflective. Or that something freaked me out and I’m just withdrawn to deal with it in my own way. There are others who seem to know me pretty well, but yet still don’t get that being intrusive can make me feel pressured or worse. There are certain boundaries no one should cross. On the other hand, thinking back to three years ago, I can see how far I’ve come!
Back then, I was hurt, lonely, afraid and I would have rather interacted with a stone than someone else. I was just exiting a relationship where I was made to believe I was this horrible person, who deserved the abuse I was getting. I believed that the only man who could love me was the man I was with at the time. He had me believing I was so horrible that no one else would put up with me and after five and a half years of this treatment and brainwashing, I actually believed it. It took many hours of therapy, a special created “toolbox” of tools that I use when I’m freaking out and many people coming forward and saying, “No, Lizzy, we love you and always have” to get me to see different.
Fast forward to today! I’m doing so much that I wouldn’t have done back then. I’m doing videos, I’m blogging more, introducing myself to others more and interacting with them, I’m in the girl scouts and leading a team of girls, I have a whole family of people who love me and best of all…yeah, best of all, is I have this wonderful man who makes me feel loved every single day, even when he’s offline. He is a blessing and it took me three long years to find him and I am so grateful for him every single day.
Through the years of losing friends, gaining new ones, finding old friends and making up with others, my whole world has grown! I’ve become this person that I don’t recognize from back then. Sure, I have a lot more work to do on myself and a lot of growth in the future, but I am on a path and in my own metamorphosis! So, with that, I wanted to thank all of my family, friends, my husband and lover, my old friends, and my new friends, for being there for me and watching and celebrating my metamorphosis! Thank you! I ♥ you all!
Today I decided to wear an outfit from Blueberry, the Liza Corset dress with the hood down paired with my butterfly (of course) silver shoes from N-Core. Add hair from Stealthic, makeup from Mila and SlackGirl, you have a smoking hot ensemble for a night out or just to lounge around in. My skin comes from Amara Beauty and my eye appliers are from Mila which can be found in the May Powder Pack. As always the information for my outfit is below along with the poses and the location. Enjoy!
Mesh Body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1
Mesh Head: LeLutka Simone 3.0
Hair: Stealthic – Somber (Kustom9)
Skin: Amara Beauty – Sophia
Makeup: MILA Divine Glory Makeup (May Powder Pack)
Lashes: SlackGirl Zaira Lashes Lelutka (May Powder pack)
Eye Appliers: MILA Odine (May Powder Pack)
Shape: [ west end ] Shapes – Jasmine (Lelutka Chloe Bento)