Let me tell you a story about living with anxiety. Everything can be fine. You could be having a great day, but out of the blue, there is an annoying voice going off, telling you that everything is wrong. This voice is so hard to ignore. Sometimes it will even cause physical effects like shaking hands or voice, even crying when you really have no reason to.
I found myself doing this the other day. I was fine, but with my dad’s health deteriorating more and more every day, I started to panic. I’m unemployed. My mom’s income would be the only income that we have to support our family until we go back to work. This set off my anxiety and caused this voice telling me that I was going to end up living on the street, homeless and cold, without a safe harbor… a roof over my head, a locked door for protection, food on the table, and more. But then I stopped. I told anxiety to “shut the fuck up.” That we are survivors and will survive. I made some big decisions that day.
The first one was cutting back on my blog a lot. I’m not going to stop blogging, but I need to cut back on sponsors and blog posts for a while. The other decision I made was working on my resume and finding a job. I prefer remote employment so I don’t have to worry about having a panic attack in public or how I would get there. I have been working on my resume and building up my portfolio with the most recent projects I have worked on. At first, I thought I would struggle with this because after all, it has been eleven years since I have worked outside of volunteering for fan clubs or charities in SL. Anyway, Adventurites, I wanted to let you know I’m still around and still blogging, but I’m cutting back so I can concentrate on my RL situation and preparing for my future.
What I’m Wearing
Today, I bring you some items from the Trunk Show with Spicy Bodyshop blush set and lipstick. A beautiful dress from Entice, also available at the Trunk Show this round. Add in some skin from Spicy Bodyshop available at their store, nails from Go Frock Yourself and a beautiful ring set from Elle Boutique! All of this combines to create a pretty summery garden image. As always, see below for the full credits and Flickr for a full-resolution version! See you next time, Adventurites! ~LA
Head: GENUS Project – Genus Head – Classic Face W001 – v1.6 – Mocap
Body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V4.1
Skin: Spicy Bodyshop – Romy skin Medium – Genus Project – Sponsor
Nails: Go Frock Yourself -Tangerine Nail Appliers – Sponsor
Eyes: Avi-Glam – Striking Eyes – Genus Applier – 12 RARE
Eyelashes: Spicy Bodyshop – Eyelashes II. Omega – Sponsor
Blush: Spicy Bodyshop – Blush set – Omega – Trunk Show – Sponsor
Lipstick: Spicy Bodyshop – Matte lipstick Fat pack EXCLUSIVE (Genus Only) – Trunk Show – Sponsor
Hair: TRUTH – Oasis
Rings: Elle Boutique – Cera Bento Rings – Sponsor
Dress: Entice – Love Story – FATPACK – Maitreya – Trunk Show – Sponsor
Pose and Prop: :LW: Bento Poses – True Colors with basket prop