Exploring Life One Pixel At A Time
The last few months have been hard. The new medicine the doctor had put me on to help me sleep at night didn’t work. All it did was place me in a deep depression and cause triggers with PTSD and anxiety. I know that I’ve written a little bit about this before but I don’t…
I saw a meme on Facebook the other day that showed a boat on the ocean and described how we are all in the same boat and that we were all struggling. The problem with this meme that I saw is we are not all in the same boat. We are in the same ocean…
The closer it gets to Christmas and my birthday, the worse I feel. Well, maybe not worse. I don’t really know how to describe what I’m feeling other than “nothing.” I just feel empty. As if someone reached inside me and ripped out all of my emotions leaving behind an empty shell of the woman…
Christmas Expo is fast approaching (See Press Release for more info). I love this event. The people who run it are always friendly and bring a lot of holiday cheer to it. And face it, this year, we need a lot of cheer. It has been a long, sucky year that has been very hard…
Even if we can’t all be together this year, there are many ways to celebrate as friends and families… This picture has been sitting on my PC for a few days now because after I finished it, my mind was so chaotic that I didn’t know what to write about. This year has been such…
Last week was hell. I ended up in the ER on the fourth with chest pains. Don’t worry, it wasn’t a heart attack, but it sure felt like one. I was so sick. The EMT pushed on my chest and I cried out in pain. I had pleurisy from a bacterial infection that caused inflammation…
Finding your safe haven in the middle of the current “storm” is difficult if you’re alone. I am lucky in that I have this man lifting me up. He’s my safe haven and confidant. It’s also helpful to have friends who let you talk about your feelings while not judging you for them. While those…
I hate when I fall ill. It takes away from all of my plans for the whole week. At the same time, it shows me when I’ve been overdoing and not taking good care of myself. I ended up in the ER last night because of it. I’ve been having pains in my chest off…
Today was one of those days where you just want to rewind the whole day, go back to bed, and hope that the next day is better. I woke up with a scratchy throat, lungs that feel tight where it’s hard to draw a complete breath, and other stuff. Emotionally, I feel as if my…
Earlier this month, I started writing affirmations for use when my anxiety kicks in and I need to calm myself. Things like “It’s okay to not be okay” and “I am human, I am not perfect. I will fall and that is okay.” I have more but they’re deeply personal so I’m not going to…